Tala
Tala, I still see your spirit
sometimes. You’re sitting in the
sun on the sofa, whispering words:
“I want you.” You’re standing in
the shower, forming faces behind
mushy make-up. You’re cuddled at
the kitchen counter, motioning for
food—more mango.
After all, you hinted you’d haunt
me, a ludicrous line eliciting a
laugh,
as I fatefully forget the details
of a past persona—someone to
fear— something you were shy to
say, afraid to accept, clutching
your cross.
Tala, I still muse on moments
memorized. You’re kissing me kindly
but morosely, delivering, doe eyed-ly:
“don’t worry.” You’re quite close to
just crying,
waning under the weight of the
world. You’re hugging me with
hesitation, looking to leave—one
last time.
After all, you hinted you’d haunt me,
not knowing the nature or just quite
how, as I cautiously cling to the
recollection
of a fateful farewell—drenched in
tears— something you were
struggling to say, afraid to admit,
clutching your cross.